Someone asked me why I am doing this because it seems like a lot of work.
It is a lot of work for anyone to find out who they are, and it might be even more work to help someone else. However, I am already an English teacher, and by extension, a literature teacher. That means I need to teach a little about cultures, but more importantly—critical thinking skills. I figured it wasn’t much of a stretch to share what I have learned so far in my life.
It seems like my long term memory is much better than my short term memory these days. When I was a boy, probably around 5 or 6, one of the first things that came to my mind was that I shouldn’t be here on Earth. Something was wrong, something was missing, but I couldn’t figure out what it was. I had even more questions arise soon after: who am I, where am I, what’s my purpose, what does it all mean? I couldn’t shake these feelings.
Up until a few years ago (I’m 46 by the way), I had spent all my life looking for those answers. I had tried many places, religions, practices, but they only hinted at the answers. They all had similar ideas pointing in the same direction, yet they had different ways to get there.
I think I finally came out of the details of life—you know?—when I started seeing the forest for the trees. In the things I found—that I didn’t necessarily agree with—, I took the pieces that felt right, and I put them together in a meaningful way for me. They all pointed to the power that was hidden in me the whole time. The power to create stuff, make mistakes, learn, and experience having improved. I found the answers to my childhood questions, at least for now. They may change soon enough, but at least I feel like I have stopped climbing a hill. I reached a plateau, and that’s good!
Since then, I found that I want to share that process with others because, without help, it’s really hard to find. I think everyone has their own paths to take, but maybe those paths could be made just a tiny bit easier for those willing to listen to what I have to say. Being an introvert, that’s not much, but you can be sure it’s boiled down to its simplest form.
Let me try to explain the process here a bit. It seems like the first step is looking for your power everywhere isn’t, collecting pieces of it, and then finally looking in the last place, the place where the search should have started. It is a rollercoaster of limitations, emotions, and expectations, but eventually it all levels out.
Some people never ask these questions, and many that do can take a lifetime to find their answers—like me. I’m not saying that my answers will be the same for everyone, but that’s not the core of what I’m sharing. It’s the mindset, the character qualities, and that everything we do is done in acceptance.
Knowing who you are, finding your personal power, and living in the ultimate environment of love is a long puzzle that you have to actively work at solving. However, the act of solving it is just living your life and facing your problems with grace and humility.
I’m not doing this to convince you to join any other movement than your own. I’m not seeking validation for my self-esteem. I want to fulfill my purpose in life, which is to help you find your own power—if you want to find it. I’m doing this because I want to share what I found with the world while I still can. This isn’t a shortcut or a novelty, but it is a real prize.
Maybe you won’t be moved today, but I hope to plant some seeds that motivate you to discover your answers, make your path, and find your power. There’s no rush, no time limit: you’ll take as long as you need. It takes one special moment to make a person curious enough to ask their questions, but not everyone is ready for that kind of thing. That’s OK, they’ll be ready someday, one day.
I hope that answers some questions, but I also hope it brings more.